I have always been a slightly bigger-than-average woman. I was aware of it when I was a kid and I secretly longed to be like the rest of the girls in my class: they were petit and gracious whereas I was quite concerned about what I looked like as a whole. My very specific problem was my tummy so I didn't analyse my body beyond that, I didn't even think about my mons pubis. 'Luckily' someone made me aware of how fat, big and ugly it was. It was essential to hide it.

Going to the beach was a great deal. I had my swimsuits either made or chosen with a fringe to conceal my 'big' mons. I was not allowed to lie down on the sand without bending one or both of my legs. It was not proper. My mons was large. I do remember well the first time I just lied down (not so long ago)... It gave me a sour-sweet taste: I was not decent but what was wrong with it? It turned out to be delightful. No body looked at it!!! It was absolutely normal!

I became a happy teenager who had to be on a diet once a year. One of those diets was the preparation for a mons liposuction. The only thing that prevented me from it was the cost. If I had the money, I would have gone through it.

Many years passed. Now I'm a grown-up and I have reconsidered all this. I can say that I did not have a problem with my mons pubis. Someone else did and made me think it was my problem when, in reality, it was hers. She was successful because I felt ashamed of it for years.

Oddly enough, none of my partners complained about it. My mons was loved and pampered and I was encouraged to love it as it is. It was so good to have compliments and warm words. They reminded me that every woman is beautiful as are their mons. I will never cover it again. I am determined to love me.